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Not love sick, but cowardly.

Baby.

I'm not love sick and stupid anymore. But that doesn't change the fact that I still want to be your baby.

No, what's keeping me from saying anything is that I have yet to find an elegant way to phrase this in a text message :

Hey, do you want to come over and do some drugs with me and maybe start kissing and then probably start touching and then definitely end up fucking? But not as a booty call. You weren't a booty call then, and I certainly wouldn't be making you one now. No, I want to fuck you out of love. You're the boy that I like to dream about, because I never felt happier than when I would fall asleep in your arms, savoring the hours of the early afternoon.


Jesus, I don't want to go through the formalities! I just want to tell you, exactly, how much I want to kiss your face and stroke your hair and wrap my legs around your waist.

- - - -, I want to start over again.

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