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How catholicism will never let me escape from it.

I have mentioned this before

Okay, because I thought about it

And really. I don't know why i don't join a convent.

I am absolutely suited for the life of a nun.

Except for the no sex

The no drugs

The no fondling

The no touching of one's own under-habit

But okay look, i can't seem to STOP feeling like I'm doing the wrong thing. Isn't that, like we already reviewed, the basis of catholicism?

I know I'm NOT doing anything wrong at all but that's catholic guilt.

What i mean is i feel guilty for not going out and getting shit faced and fucking random dudes

That's what TV tells me i should do. That's what people my age do. Why am i not doing this?

Okay so if i DO do that, i bet i'm going to feel guilty because I'm going to have to call up a whole lot of people and tell them to get tested.

CATHOLIC GUILT! you see this shit?! i clean i cook i wait i keep it tight...catholicism. you can't escape it.

No I was never confirmed and I believe i was baptized in my kitchen with tap water when i lived in Jordan ( holy land= jordan river=tap water=holy water)

But still. It's just been stamped inside my insides. ( we do kind of party a bit, we catholics )

bonus: really now think about how well i can pull off catholic school girl. Anyone can but i'm authentic.


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