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And What if I did?

What if I decided to let go

of my restraint and leave

my little whims to grow

and blossom into monstrous desires?

What if I listened to what my body told me?

Rejecting the furious alarm of the mind

for a delicious bit of pleasure from 

arbitrary bodies?

If it's all the same to you, there isn't merit to anything if everything has value. 

If it's all the same to you, I have grown tired of the struggle to be reasonable 

to be logical and good and pure and sound and demure;

fighting tooth and nail to shut off the valve

of pulsating possibilities so that I am

left in the Desert, thirsty and weak. 

If it's all the same to you, I'll loosen my grip but I won't let go of the reins. 


  1. you should turn the record over, it's long overdue


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