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Modern Poem 1 &2

1.

We prefer to fuck ourselves

tilting the screen

to watch strangers

we pretend

would be our friends.


alone in the dark

lonely in the light


It's more efficient

to withhold your altruism

and cum in your own hands.







2.



Oh Liberated Thoughts,

hermetically sealed with irascible insults,

Protect us from the new crusaders.


They hurl grenades

to burn it down to

built it back up to God,

who forgives all sins

unless you question him.
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Identity Crisis or Maybe I'm Worth More Than A Cum Stain

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'But He's Such a TALENTED Comedian'

Guys like you huh?

Disgusting, average, carelessly cynical to a point of being a bore. You never thought you'd end up making a fool of yourself. You're just going to piss and shit on the world because you feel yourself entitled to your total misery. You are both the ultimate victim and ultimate strongman. Trump with a Bernie Bumper Sticker.

Yes, Rick Sanchez was based off your glory days, most certainly. Never mind that he's a fictional cartoon, but you've also been afforded the same genius and prodigious creativity, right? Right.


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I tend to get furious pretty quickly over relatively small and insignificant annoyances, all while swallowing major irritations ( like advice from a Trump voter or Mansplaining being mansplained by a man) so I can actively avoid serious jail time.

There is a place in L.A. that is fucking miserable and I remember you brought me to it and I must have been nothing but a spoiled little brat with my stone-faced look and total disgust with the service and concept. I tried to be as polite as possible, but if I recall I barely had anything to say and the whole idea of the place was making me angry, terrified, sad, confused, and worried all at once. I would find solace once me and my new friend began to commiserate over the pompous level at which this restaurant attempted to operate.

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Look at my bobs. Look at my vagene. What powers. 

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