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Modern Poem 1 &2


We prefer to fuck ourselves

tilting the screen

to watch strangers

we pretend

would be our friends.

alone in the dark

lonely in the light

It's more efficient

to withhold your altruism

and cum in your own hands.


Oh Liberated Thoughts,

hermetically sealed with irascible insults,

Protect us from the new crusaders.

They hurl grenades

to burn it down to

built it back up to God,

who forgives all sins

unless you question him.
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